Mondays are generally mundane. Like a movie with a very sad ending.
Mine followed the rule. It was draped in grey with generous helpings of
cumulonimbus collected over its head. Throughout the day, it wore a sad smiley
with a ‘C’ lip and not its usual bracketed frown. Like this. :C . (Isn’t sad
smiley an oxymoron? I love oxymorons and have a long list full of them.)
Mondays are like the first day at school. Ma waving good bye and
the teacher pulling you through the gate. The feeling of “how-could-Ma-do-this-to-me?”
followed by torrents of salt-laden water. Mondays are such. And, on such days,
all you want to embrace is the Sunday gone by. I tried. Stretched my mind and
looked for the Sunday frantically. Below the sheets, on the top of the
cupboard, in between the pages of the Jerry Pinto-book I was reading, under the
bed, in the ceilings and cobwebs, in the trash folder of my mail, on the window
sill. I ran my fingers through the dust collected on the floor from last
night’s Norwester, trying to fathom if they had hidden my Sunday. Nah, the Sunday
was nowhere. It was GONE. And for the first time in these 29 years, I realised I
had let go what I have loved the most. You know the feeling, right? The
happiest part of your existence has drifted away from you, packed its bags and
bought tickets to Neverland. (And
“Niruddesh-shomporke ghoshona” just doesn’t work in this case).
Sunday was a best friend, the happiness of reading ‘Chnader
Pahaar’ for the first time, a tuft of smiles and giggles, the smell of salt
long before you actually reach the sea. Sunday was like slipping your tired
feet into ice cold rubber slippers (affectionately, hawai choti) after a long day at work. Sunday was like paashbalish.
Sundays are meant to be held close to your lungs. The moment I
realised that mine has alienated from me, I felt choked. I also felt helpless.
The helplessness of experiencing a powercut on a Wednesday when Chitrahaar was been aired, the helplessness of getting 99 in Maths during Board
exams, the helplessness of misspelling the password of your e-mail…..you can’t
find out where exactly you went wrong.
When I was a child, Sunday belonged to me like a lost and found
twin. Full of life, happy, uninhibited, lazy with dollops of madness. Sunday
meant late mornings.…….mornings which would start with a half-folded bread
dipped into my grandmother’s cup of tea. Sunday mornings felt like paradise
when an 8-10 year old me got permissions for tea-dipped toasts. (I was also allowed
to dip Marie thin arrowroot biscuits into tea and eat them. But it never
worked. The biscuit would, at the wink of an eye, dive into the hot brown
beverage and melt away. So I chose toasts instead). Speaking of the grand mom,
I lost her last Thursday. The Sunday is long lost too.
If you have a grand mom whose world is the kitchen, Sunday
breakfasts are bound to be finger-licking good. Luchi – ‘kalo jeere
dewa aloor torkari’ tasted like magic potion.
Sunday also meant visits to the fish market with Baba. I felt
ecstatic at the smell of fish, the smell of their blood and the spark of their
shiny scales. I loved how the yellow bulb would shine throughout the day on
their silver bodies. I loved fish markets. The smell of Sunday was smell of raw
fish.
Sunday was Ramayana and Mahabharat on DD and art classes
thereafter. The smell of crayons, water colours, thick art papers and the taste
of the ends of blue HB pencils.
Sunday also meant Mutton.
The orange oil-dripping gravy with big slices of potato. And mutton meant gol-haar.
Yes, I would drool over those cylindrical bones which were meant to be sucked
so that the bone marrow would slip into the mouth. Moment of victory! But when
the soft brown substance refused to come out from its long hibernation, the
same grand mom would use her mortar and pestle to break the bone and take out
the marrow. Heaven! Heaven that smelled mutton. Heaven that reeked Lal-doi. Yes, Baba would unfailingly
bring sweet curd from shops which he considered Calcutta’s best. The
bone-marrow-slobber stealthily crept in the earthen pot and hid itself in the
topmost thick layer of the brownish curd.
We would also have haircuts on Sundays. Till the age of fourteen,
I had my hair trimmed from the local barber (napit) who used to visit
our house on Sundays. Baba, my brother and I would sit on the terrace and he
would rob us of our hair. (And sometimes the nails too). It was utterly
embarrassing for me to sit on an open terrace and have a haircut from a barber,
when all my school friends were already visiting beauty parlours. But that was
how haircut-Sundays were meant to be.
Old Bengali classics filled Sunday evenings. Saptapadi, Dewa Newa,
Agnishwar on DD were like sundaes on Sundays.
On Sundays, we would go to bed early.
I went to sleep. I woke up the next day and saw the Sunday gone.
It’s been almost seven to eight years since Sunday is gone. And, it has refused
to come back. Strangely the Hindu marriage laws say that if a woman does not
hear from her husband for more than 7 years, she can assume her husband to be
dead. Do I assume the same for the lost Sunday? Restless streams of tears
flowed down my cheek.
Then I stopped, gathered the broken pieces of my heart from all
over the floor, stitched them together, took a deep breath and started the
Sunday-search all over again. I needed my Sunday back…..more than it needed me.
So I wouldn’t give up.
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I was going to office and had crossed the Majherhat Bridge. Do you
know what I saw at one corner? A tree full of pink Frangipani flowers. I looked
again. For all these years, I thought Frangipani flowers were egg-coloured.
White petals with a yellow yolk in the middle. But pink!!! The colour of candy
floss balls with patches of a darker shade of pink here and there (the same
shade that they turn into when you salivate on them). They looked beautiful.
But what was more beautiful was finding a new colour for an old object. I
remember, when I was a little girl, on a full moon night, I was this amazed at the colour of the moon. Moon
was supposed to be silver or white. But what I saw was a huge orange Tangerine
hanging from the sky. I was this
amazed. The pink Frangipani seemed to be like a lost piece of a big jigsaw
puzzle. A slice of Sunday. I stored it on my cell phone. Cell phones are great
safety vaults.
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I have been travelling through the Babughat stretch almost every
day since the time I joined work. Six solid years. A few thousands of times.
Now, every time you cross Princep Ghat from Hastings, the network goes off.
There is no coverage for mobile phones or car radios. This is because of the
Army camp bordering the banks of the river. Till you reach Babughat, you are ‘signal-free’.
This is an unfailing phenomenon.
One evening, I was crossing the same stretch. I was talking to a
friend over the phone. I crossed Babughat, the Scoop and then Prince Ghat. We
kept on talking. When I reached Khidderpore, I realised that the conversation
went uninterrupted! For moments I could not believe my ears. It was magic! Like
a slice of a Sunday.
I have tried this several times later. No, it never happened
again. Magic moments are rare. Rarer is the happiness it inflicts. It stays for a long long time.
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A friend gifted me the entire set of “Diary of a wimpy kid”. For
days, I would take the entire box to bed and go to sleep. I always woke up with
a smile. It was not only the gift that made me so ecstatic, it was the
thought of gifting someone a part of her childhood. Like crayon boxes and
colouring books, lollipops and chocolate Eclairs. Like gifting someone a month
long Summer holiday with no home work.
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I read this on one of my favourite blogs.
“Thoooooooooo.
F*** man.
There is an inherent beauty of “thuuu” which is hard to replicate
in the English language. Nothing really has that mix of immaturity, derision
and ha ha hee hee like the word “thuuu”.
Say it. You know you want to.
Okay, one, two, three.”
Thoooooo.
Relief!
Also, wouldn’t you feel delighted if you discover a deep oneness
of thoughts with an almost-stranger? I felt DELIGHTED. “Thoooo” is one of my
favourite words too. The only thing is, I prefix it with “Wack” which makes it wacky.
I quickly made a mental list of all those names, places and things
I wanted to say ‘thooooooo’ to. I felt so happy instantly!
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My mother in law has ‘kahan se aaye baadra’ for her caller tune.
Every time I call her I can hear “Athh Shree
Mahabharata katha” playing somewhere. The title song of Mahabharat. @weirdness,
DD-Sundays, goosebumps.
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Jagadish is our office peon. He gets food for us for lunch.
One day I asked for something. He snapped at me. “Ekhon parbo na ami”, he said rudely and
walked away. In these situations, I hardly get angry. I feel sad. I stopped
calling for food. He would come and ask. I avoided him.
Then this started. Even without asking for food, I started getting
something interesting or the other on my table every day. Chicken noodles topped
with Chilly Chicken gravy, grilled sandwich, biryani, Moghlai paratha, khichuri-omelet
and the like.
I gave up and smiled at him gratefully. Next second he says: “Onek
din eto teltele khabar kheyechen. Aj idlee khan.” (You’ve had enough oily food.
Now stick to idlees.) Okay, I almost had a lump in the throat. Not because
idlee tastes like horse-poop but because there was so much concern in his
voice.
Yes, after that day I have never asked for anything specific. He has
exercised his own discretion. He would research, go places, suggest food which
he thinks is excellent and even get dessert without being asked for.
He won my heart.
I won several things which money can’t buy.
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Didn’t I tell you I love oxymorons? My list grew a centimeter
longer. Yay!
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One day, I was browsing through someone’s blog. I saw something
that I was least expecting. I found these lines “the vivacious lawyer who knows
the nooks and corners of my city
more than I do”.
How do you react when the person whom you consider your soul mate, so far as the love for this city is concerned, says these about you?
You realise that life is beautiful. And Sunday is scattered
everywhere in pieces. You just have to find them, arrange them neatly and keep
them in the safe. *doors locked*
And then, the C turns D. And I smile again.
:D
